Don't Be A Stranger, Pasqual

I have not written in this blog for a while...

As a matter of fact, I forgot I even had a blog until I ran into it on my bookmarks bar.

Anyway, I was reading my old posts and it was crazy to see how much I have changed since high school. I think change is a beautiful thing. I used to hate it; I always wanted things to remain at a constant. But I realize now, that change is necessary for everything.

I dreaded college, and I thought my life would turn upside down because all of my friends were going to different places, including my girlfriend.

But now, I appreciate it. Yes, there have been hard times, but that's just the freshman adjustment, and it will be easier next year.

More than anything, I have spent time alone.

Everyday I drive 60 miles on average, to and from school. Sometimes it takes me an hour, sometimes 2 and a half. That whole time, I'm alone in my car.

I was never used to being alone. I always had my brother with me, or my friends, or my girl. I was never alone.

At first it made me feel uncomfortable to be alone; I felt like a loser, or like I was doing something wrong. But now, I like it. To me, the road is a time for me to think, reflect, and predict.

Most of the ideas I get have been from driving on the freeway.

So before I go, a quick update for future reference. I'm still with Robin, I am a freshman at Chapman University, majoring at the film school in Creative Producing. I have an internship at the City of Brea TV and broadcast station. I still think Sublime is the greatest band ever, but I don't mind popping in some Bad Brains or Kanye West or even Public Enemy; depending on my mood. I still go to the gym a lot; not every day, but I try. I'm currently writing a screenplay to a movie called: "Thanks for Waiting", which I hope to film one day. Still love my brother. Still love my Mom and Dad. Oh yeah, and I got a dog. His name is BUD. I love him, too. He's watching me write this.

Change is growth.

you don't know the value of water until your well runs dry

BE THANKFUL.

ALL OF YOU.

most of you are probably reading this at home, in your room, or on your laptop, or your iPhone. you're probably reading this because you have nothing better to do. You're living comfortably at home, with a nice car that your parents bought for you, and you're probably financially stable. You're in a comfort zone. And in this zone, nothing can hurt you. What's on your mind is strictly based on self-motivation. 

Well, one day, we're all gonna die. so make the best out of your life.

yesterday i got in a car accident. i'm fine. i didn't even tell my parents about it because i knew they would freak out. 

my girlfriend was telling me that she was leaving for college, Monterey Bay, thats 5 hrs away. 

today she told me she's staying home. she made her final decision.

today i didn't wake up with a bruise on my body from the accident. i'm thankful.

today i woke to a family of four and a good house in Walnut, California; an area with not lots of crime and a good school. 

today i realized. i'm lucky. 

and so are you.

Keep On Movin

Another week later, another week older. 

This weekend everybody went to a lingerie party that was right next to my friend Brandon's house. I didn't go, because i don't need that. I went to Robin's house instead. All my friends went though, and they told me that it was pretty gay, and there was tons of drama. 

On Saturday i set up a place in my garage so my band could jam. Matt Lu came over and so did Brandon and basically we worked magic that afternoon. We played until like 6:30 non-stop. 

Hmmm Sunday i chilled out with all the old Z boys that used to kick it in the summer. We were supposed to film a video for Carl but he never showed up, so we just went to cherry on top and jammed out with our clams out.

I'm trying to post one of these at least once a week so that one day when i am older i can look back and say: Gosh, i was so immature back then. 

Wake Up, You Son of a Bitch

this week is somehow going by extremely slowly.

i don't understand the slowness of it.

i got a new resolution, which is to go to the gym everyday. 

and so far, i've been doing good. but i've been sore as a mofo. 

i've also been very sleepy. 

Yeah, basically i'm writing in here because i'm bored. And i'm writing in here because this day was pretty crazy. 

lots of drama for your mama. 

but it's always all good. 

i love my life, and everyone should love theirs. 

ONE LOVE.

The Answer Is Blowin' In The Wind

Sometimes life gives you what you want,

so you take it.

But--

Sometimes life gives you shit,

and you eat it.

But nonetheless,

it's life. And it goes on.

That's what's happening right now. 

Kinda sucks.

I don't wanna go to college, because it's just another obstacle for me. I believe I can overcome any obstacle, but this one is going to do lots of damage. 

People say that you should live in the "now", and enjoy every day. If you have worries, push them forward and forget about them. 

But what happens when all of those worries that you pushed so far away finally catch up to you? What the hell do you do then?

You say you live in the "now", well now the "now" is full of shit. So what the hell do you do then? You eat it. And you keep going, and you hope things will get better. You know things will get better.

That's all.

BYAH!

3 more months until school is officially over. It's pretty crazy when you think about it.

i wanna graduate. but there's always a little nervous anticipation whenever i say that. i don't know what the future will hold, and sometimes, i don't like to think about it. Whatever the case is, i know i have to rise to the occasion. When you're 18, everyone expects more out of you. lame. 

Hmmm....nothin else has really happened. Tomorrow is my girlfriend's birthday :D but she doesn't even have a blogspot so she's probably never going to read this. 

I've been doing a lot of deep thinking again, as gay as that sounds.

Gotta keep prioritizing. 

I think in my last blog i talked about that. Anyway, i'm workin on it, and i'm getting a little better.

started going to the gym with Mok. I'm sore.

that's all for tonight.